Finally...Hunter is back!!!

*Warning long blabby post about nonsense that doesn't particularly matter to anyone but me*

For those of you who don't know, which is everyone (only Marilyn looks at my blog hahaha), I have a '98 Chevy which happens to be a dark, hunter green. Hence the name, Hunter. Well I've had him since my junior year of high school, 2010. He's now a young ol' chap at 14 years with almost 180,000 miles on him. Hunter has been out of commission for more than a year now. I never thought he'd pull through (get repair) but he did!!! A whole $1300 and I now have a car again!! After dropping another $130 tomorrow to register Hunter, everything will be perfect with my car situation at least.
Being back in Hunter brings back so many memories. If someone could analyze the year of my life that I first had my blazer, they'd label me a horrible person in the first 10 seconds. But i believe that year was the only year I ever really lived so far. I was so carefree. I lived without any regrets or concern of others. All I wanted was to have fun and enjoy my life. It was so amazing. I was limitless.
What reminded me and flooded my subconscious with 100s of memories was one tiny Smirnoff cap wedged in between the steering wheel console and gauges. ;D
It hasn't been all shits and giggles tho. All this pressure with fixing my car (i.e. money!!) along with just everyday life (i.e. shit for family and a pushy bf), I've been super stressed. Last Friday at received my first paycheck at my new job. Now, I didn't expect a lot. But after receiving the check and adding up the bills I have to pay along side of my total amount of money, I was devastated. I was clearly in the negative about $200!! When I drove to DMV after work to get a 10 day driving permit for my blazer, I started breathing heavily and was shaking like mad. I had to pull over and it took me nearly 5 minutes to slow my breathing although I was still moderately shaking. I described the event to my brother and he said it sounded like the panic attack he had once. I don't really know what it was, but it was probably stress induced and I know it was scary!!! Anyways my finances ended up working out somehow, someway. I just don't know if I can keep my money out of the negative...