They like me...they like me not!

Last night I went to a Halloween party. It ended up only being like 6 of us but it was fun. I finally feel like I might be making friends. I don;t really know though, it's so hard for me to make friends and/or keep them. I feel like I don't fit in. Or that they can tell I'm trying to hard. Or they absolutely hate my personality. Or that they'll just stop talking to me one day.
If only you could read people's feelings and see exactly how they felt about you. I mean cut the bullshit! I'm just sick of not knowing if someone likes me or wants me to be around. I wish we didn't have to tip toe around people's feelings. Life would be so much easier.

But yea my hair looked almost on point.

First time for everything!

I've drawn plenty of things on my nails before (flowers, candies, bows, etc) but never have I ever written letters. Needless to say, it was a lot harder than I thought it would be! Oh well though, practice makes perfect right!? It reads from left to right 'Blink 182'. Good idea, not executed so well. I'm watching Hocus Pocus right now and defiantly in the Halloween mood!


On another note, I received a job offer to work as a housekeeper in a casino. Right now I work in sales at a cell phone company. I'm not enjoying my job very much so I'm thinking of taking the pay cut and cleaning up after nasty people... I'm not really sure yet. I guess you could say I'm confused with life at the moment.

Who isn't though?

No more Chewbacca!!!!

My eyebrows were so hairy! After over 2 months of ignoring the mess directly on my face, I got that shit waxed!
And tonight I went to my great uncle Rick's retirement party which was pretty fun. I played with all the little kids and they were attached to my hip the whole night. I want to be a mom so bad - someday - far, far away. Also, I felt very nice and um, chic? tonight. I really don't know if I looked as good as I felt but I had these really nice shoes & jacket (I'll post them below) and a pretty flower dress. With curly black hair :)

And I painted my nails last night like candy corn!!!
Ok, that is all.
So long, farewell
Auf Wiedersehen, adieu
Adieu, adieu
To you and you and you

I feel prettier lately

I know this sounds weird but I never learned how to wear make-up. Sure, I wore mascara and the occasional eyeshadow, but I didn't know how to line my upper lash line with eyeliner, how to correctly apply blush, foundation, or bronzer, or how to mix different colors on my eyes.
Lately, my self-esteem has been really low. So I watched like a million youtube videos on how to put on makeup. I went out and spent a whopping $80 on make-up! But I feel as if I'm making some progress :)

That's all folks!

Lazy Days

Today was a really nice lazy day. I stayed in my pajamas all day, which I haven't been able to do in 4 years. Wow, it feels weird to be able to think 4 years ago my life was different. Four years ago I was too young, my life was static. Now things are completely different.
Anyways, I woke up at eleven (a wow! in its self). I sat around and watched Bones. Then made homemade cinnamon rolls. And for dinner chicken strips. It was a really nice day, I'm happy.

Social Life!

I might have one soon! I made a friend at work and we're going to the circus tomorrow. And also a lesbian I knew in vegas invited me to a Halloween party!!!! Whooo!!! I don't know what I'm going to be but I do know I'll be there for sure. It'll be a drastic change to finally have some people to hang out with. I feel like I've been without friends for like 2 years.

Btw I wonder who's been viewing my blog. I'm sure Marilyn hasn't viewed it 50 times. I'm happy other people are reading what I have to write :)

Mo' Money, Mo' Problems

That's me...without the money! Well it's officially October and the mouse pad on my laptop won't move! I'm using my grandma's right now. But I'm annoyed.
And Josh won't talk to me today because I didn't text him back, oh well.

I don't have much to say.