Hi!

So it's been months since I've been on here. Like really wrote a post. So it's time to update (to update the zero people that read this blog?). I guess what I'm trying to do is reflect on mself and I don't care if anyone reads it. I'm going to evaluate my "New Years Goals".

This is them (copy & pasted from 1/1/2013):
1. Enroll in some kind of classes for the summer semester.
2. Find a new home on our own (me & Hachi) by the end of this year but preferably, by my 20th birthday
3. Find out exactly where Josh's and mine relationship is going.
4. Be more positive and affectionate.
5. Make some friends; I'm sick of being alone.

Here's my progress:
1. I didn't take any summer courses. I had trouble transferring my credits from CSN to TMCC. But I eventually got it done and am now enrolled in 5 courses for Fall of 2013. I am on my way to becoming a teacher!
2. I still live with my Gramps. For now, I am okay with that. I have a vision of where I'd like to be living next year though.
3. Our relationship wasn't going anywhere. He was an asshole. I loved him, but I wasn't in love. I realized how bad he treated me and we had a mutual breakup. I haven't spoke to him much since then (February). I'm seeing a new boy though. He's really great. Tall, affection, caring, family-oriented; everything I want.
4. I am being a lot more positive! Everyone has noticed. And it's true what they say about the power of positive thinking, I've accelerated much more in life since I've changed the way I think. I'm working on being affectionate. I try to express everything to my new guy but sometimes it's hard to put feelings into words. The only person (?) I can be completely open and affectionate with is Hachi :3
5. I haven't made any really good friends. Not like I had in high school. I miss sleepovers and hour long phone conversations. I miss being bored and being able to call up one of my friends to just hang out. I'm not talking really about my partying stage and those friends. More like my 9th and 10th grade friends. I wish I would've held on to them. I miss you Marilyn!

And this is how life is for me. I'm not very happy, but I'm working on getting there. I know I'm the only person that can make my happiness a reality.

Oh and here's my favorite song for like the past year. Enjoy!